I love my man. It's been awhile. But i wanted to write somewhere no one read. lol. And if they do, they will know EVERYTHING! lol!!! I got the cutest puppy in the whole world yesterday on St. Paddy's day. and me and Drew named him O'Brian, Obie for the short version. lol. It's funny how a puppy can make you feel happy all of a sudden! Me and Drew needed someone to love, and Obie is the person someone. A couple months back, Me and Sami were hanging out alot again... like 3 years earlier. And, it was nice, we laughed, texted, talked, dressed up... and It's weird, cause everything just happened again... BLANK... nothing. she got mad at something that i wrote about New Years... which was nothing towards her, and we stoped everything. And i was broken up about it AGAIN... and last week we went to their party (which im not a big party person...), and me and drew left after a hour or so.. lol... + i was sick the day before. buttt, i saw her... and it made me sad. I see all these people who want their old lifes back, SO badly! I mean, i see me, how i want mine. If this was a perfect world, i would have Ashley, Jerod, and Kai living right next door, and Chelsea on the other side! and josh... lol... i would love to have the most important people around me all the time! I realized... i dont need Sami. I dont need Mandy, i was trying to play the role, cause i wanted to be liked SO much! yes, i care for sami and mandy... but i cant always try. so, i'm going to be who i am... i'm not goin to be rude... or mean. but i can just do what i want. lol. and i'll invite people to do things! cause i love my friends, but if they dont want to do whatever i want to... oh well. I love franny, i know she has her quarks. But she is a good friend. I love her, for loving me for who i am. lol Okay, almost time to go get my puppy! :)

I just remembered about this. and wow! it weird... i used to go on here everyday. and i dont think anyone remembers this. except for maybe minty. but.... it almost halloween... and i've been in california for over a year now. and now i'm thinking about going back to arkansas! haha. weird how things happen. but i'm still with drew. VERY confused still. i broke up with him once. and then i thought i was happy again. but now i'm getting the annoying feeling i had before. and i dont know what to do. hes a really gooooood kisser now! hahahaha.... hes a sweet boy. but hes a boy. i dont know. maybe i'm going to start my period. thats it! haha he loves me. and i love him i'll write more later. this feels good.

10 more days you guys!!! i cant wait!!!.... i get to see everyone, and ashlie gets to meet all of you!! i cant wait!!! yey!!

i seem to be writting in my other blog... all i have to say is... i'm tired... but i have to stay up...

well yesterday we had a good dinner! my family came over, who i dont talk to... but thats okay... i ate good food. have you noticed that your real family is the people you choose? i mean i remember being in california, and i alway spent my holidays with jeannette... i want just thinking about that. but anyways... me and drew have been talking alot lately... i like it. can you believe its just 23 days until i'm out there!? its alot, but its not. but i call lyssa yesterday... and i love talking to her. shes so cool. i just cat wait to see her and EVERYONE!!! i just want to have fun... i'm planning on going to the movies tonight with ashlie, daniel, and james... so i hope thats fun. i'm just eatting suffing right now... its good... but anyways... i just keep rambling on... but i wanted to update... so hear you go... hehe... i love you, everyone!!!!!! i hope you had a wonderful day!

well today was our last day before thanksgiving... tomorrow i get to sleep in! our school was trying to make it a fun day... the first part of the day was with james, ashlie, and daniel... and we are planning to get together on friday or something... and then at the end of the day  i was with chelsea, greg, and josh. it as fun like the last half hour... but i just want to still be in california... and i want to stop eating... so i will... no more food today... hehe... i just want to talk to drew now... i love him, if you didn't know... but i have to go... people are calling... i'm kinda upset though... oh well...

oh yeah, and me and drew have plans... and i cant wait!